Today my boss’ brother died for cancer. My mom had cancer last year and was very hard for she and us, his children. I’m really sad because cancer is hard to face it. I deal with my problems writing and that is what I did. This is my first Tom POV (in fact is a Prince Hal POV), my first photo story, and is inspired in part on this song.
This is dedicated to my mom and my boss’ bro: for everything who fought and fights against cancer.
Everyone says that it’s the natural course of things, but within the soul is a pain that cannot be removed by natural reasoning. Where once I thought I was only to feel the loneliness that leaves when you are predestined for greatness, now it’s time to be alone, face to face with the past and the future. This time will come for all, and from now on I’ll never be without company, because I am loved or feared. But actually this is the time when most I’ve found I’m most alone, and little will change after this. I feel like the shadows surround me in broad daylight, I feel as though I want to hide, inside I know that is my world without end, and paradoxically, I have no place to go. Not now when you’re not here. People say I should be living a life without regrets, but inside it’s all I have: I regret every moment that I left your side. I never regret what I said. I regret that you may never think of me. I will not say goodbye, I will not say adieu, because basically I want to have your memory close to my heart, to never forget everything I am, comes from you and a tie as blood is something that never breaks, even with death. Although I don’t want to, but I wish that when this day happens, I know you’re hoping I run as far as possible, leading my life as far as you dreamed I would. And that I will do. But this day, this day is too long for this penalty. And the night has yet to come.